Thanksgiving

The holidays are upon us. I swear once Thanksgiving gets here, you blink and Christmas is the next day. Or at least it seems that way. I am in no way ready for Christmas. There just has been so much going on.
For me this holiday season I have a lot to be thankful for. I have my family. Even though they are not all here with me, they are in my heart. Its been a year since my father passed away (Nov 15th) and it still hits me hard. I miss my father very much. I wish he could see me now. I know he wanted me to lose weight for a variety of reasons. He knew I was going through the process for this weight loss surgery, and I know in my heart that he can see me. I know in my heart that he is proud of me. I just wish I could hear him say it.
I have not seen my grandson since the week after Easter. I have called numerous times but never get a response from his parents. This has been extremely hard and very frustrating. The last I heard is "he has some issues going on and its best we don't get to see him" I honestly have a hard time over this. I just don't understand how this can be my fault and it would be damaging for us to see him. I love my grandson very much and would never do anything to cause him harm. I just have to trust in the Lord that it will all work out. I hope he remembers just how much I love him and miss him.
My mother is having some surgery the end of the month. The doctor did some testing beginning of the month and test results came back that said she has Uterine Cancer. But that they caught it in the very early stages and this surgery should take care of it all. I know that someday I am going to have to deal with not having both my parents around. But I am just not ready yet. I am praying that things go 100% perfect and things will be OK. But I also know it is not in my hands.
I am looking forward to having some turkey. I get really hungry for the taste of it around the time of year and just can't seem to wait. I know I won't be able to eat much. But thats ok. It doesn't take much to fill me up anymore. But I know I am suppose to eat something every couple hours so I intend to do just that. And the food of choice for me will be TURKEY!!!!
I went to the doctor last week and I have now lost a total of 118lbs. I was very happy and the doctor was pleased. He said I am doing great. He stated he would like to see me lose another 100. I have no problem with that and I am striving towards that. He thought it shouldn't be a problem for me to have that accomplished by my year anniversary in May. I am shooting towards that goal.
I need to exercise more then I do. I just have never been one to do that so I am having trouble getting completly motivated. The water exercise class I used to go to at the YMCA has changed the schedule around a little so I need to talk to the instructor and see whats best for me. I enjoyed this type of exercise very much. And once you get started in going it just became easier.
I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving and enjoys the day. Remember all the blessings you have in your life and embrace them. You never know when life will throw you a curve ball. My heart is full of Love for so many people. Love to all.